Remember taste?

I miss you roti.

I didn't go to work again today, I suck.

I still feel like shit. And I am completely bored. Also, I haven't been able to taste anything all week. This is really scary, thinking about never being able to taste ever again. This is the longest that I have ever not been able to taste. It's freaking me out.

I spent most of today angrily journaling. I don't know what sparked the sudden anger, I'm pretty comfortable with my current situation. I have finally come to terms with the fact that everything is out of my hands. And really there should be no decisions to make, as I have laid out what I need, and it's all fair to me. So what will be will be. If it turns out not to be what I want then it's not what I wanted anyway, right? Everyone wants to be wanted.

I also realized that I've matured so much through the past couple months that I now have balls. The balls to say how I feel, the balls to do my own thing, the balls to actually feel anger. it's cool. balls are cool.

plus, i think i'm worth the diamonds.

[dances away in sexy red dress to some sean paul...]