relationships in the time and space continuum

Isn't time weird? Sometimes my children will come in after the weekend, like they did today, and they will have grown several inches. As adults we completely forget what it's like to grow like that because we are basically the same everyday. We have probably been the same height since we were about 18, maybe younger. We stay at status-quo by decade...we pretty much look the same in our 20's, the same in our 30's and so on.

I feel like time has been passing by so quickly. It's March for heavens sake! What happened to January and February? The more I think about it, the more I get freaked out by the fact that I am getting older without realizing. I guess it's a good thing that I just enjoy my life and don't worry that each day, I am one step closer to death - but still.

When I was talking to a friend (who is older than me) the other day, she mentioned that as she has gotten older, she has become more disappointed by people who she thought were friends. Her real friendships have really crystallized with her age and she has been let down more by people as she has gotten older. This really struck me. I think about my life-long friends, and how much I miss the ones who don't live near me (even the ones that do live near me)...and how lucky I am to have those connections. I have realized that a bunch of people in my life do not have these long-term relationships, and that is sad. I think about how many "friends" I have lost, and how really, those people probably weren't friends, and that is strange.

Humans are so interesting. We are getting older, time flying past us at an extremely fast rate, and we are always taking things for granted. We are gaining and losing friends. We are participating in relationships that are needy or fake and ones that are meaningful and fulfilling. Why are we doing this? The ups and downs of friendships are exhausting. Sometimes we are wasting too much time dealing with drama and sometimes we are not letting tragedy affect us at all. Sometimes we are feeling sad, guilty or desperate for months and sometimes time flies by so fast that we realized we were actually happy all along.