Hamlet

I think that sometimes, people sort of forget that we are who we are. Change is not easy. Sometimes we fight change, sometimes we are forced to change, and sometimes we have such willpower, that we work as hard as we can to make change happen. I feel like deep down though, we are just us...a unique person, unlike any other person that has lived before us, at the same time as us, or will ever live.

Tonight at Ryan's pumpkin party, it was pointed out while playing CatchPhrase, that I am very competitive. This is completely true. I have played sports my whole life and I went to a high school where everything was cut-throat...grades, sports, extracurriculars, the clothes on your back. However, I feel like as I've gotten older, I have managed to not care about outcomes so much...but I am intense and I do like to play as such...this is not a problem in sports or friendly games...but it's totally a problem in real life.

We are all judging each other. We are all sizing each other up to see what qualities we possess versus what others possess. I feel like it takes a lot to really know yourself deeply, what your wants, needs, and feelings really are. IF we are unhappy with ourselves is it because we feel we are inadequate or is it because we really just don't know ourselves?

Sometimes I bother myself. I find myself comparing myself to others...and I lose sight of who I am and what I'm about. I feel like I need to change to be someone I'm not instead of embracing my own uniqueness. This post is a reminder that I am who I am...I don't need to change to please anyone, unless that anyone is myself.