Letting It Go

Did you ever have one of those epiphanies out of the blue where you realize something will just work out, it will just be o.k.? Well I don't have them often because I stress out randomly about dumb things...but this weekend...I had several. When I feel stressed out I try to think of the serenity prayer...and remember that I can't control other people or situations...I can only control myself. However, I rarely believe this in my core. Like I just don't let things go...but it's weird, I feel like I have let a bunch of things go recently.

Have you ever seen the movie Enough with Jennifer Lopez? Her husband is abusive and she runs away from him, then she trains in martial arts and ends up kicking the shit out of him. She becomes the powerful one. That's me. I don't give myself enough credit for how far I've come...and now that I have started to really remember who I am...I am able to let things go. It's a weird feeling, awesome, but weird. Like I literally feel like a weight has been taken off my shoulders. It really is awesome.

I guess this is kind of inspiried by the movie I saw this weekend, The Brave One, with Jodie Foster. Now I'm not going to go around shooting people for justice...I'm just saying - maybe it takes different amounts of time for each of us to work things out in our brains, or our hearts...(ok, and maybe some people would rather shoot their enemies).

On a funny note - in the movie, Nicky Katt plays the secondary Detective to Terence Howard's character. You may remember him from Boston Public...he's been in a bunch of other things too. Anyway, there is this one scene where there are two dead guys on the subway train which is stopped at a station - and one of the bodies is hanging out the door. So the police arrive at the scene - and Nicky Katt's character is like witty, funny guy in this movie - he approaches the body, looks down, and says, "Christ on a cracker!" O.k. - well this is juxtaposed with this very sad, serious scene with jodie foster crying --- and what am I doing in the theater? HYSTERICALLY LAUGHING. Is that wrong? Did I ruin that scene for everyone? Nobody else was laughing. But, I mean, c'mon, he said "Christ on a cracker!" Anyway that was the funniest thing I've heard in a movie besides, "It rhymes with smushmortion."