Is it boredom? I crave fun.

I know I have a pretty full life. It's full. It's jampacked. It's tubular. I know this. Then why am I bored?

Tonight I was babysitting and when I was putting the little 7 year old girl to bed, she asked me, "Kate, are you married?" And I said, "No, I'm not." She said, "Well, why not? You look so pretty with your hair down, why aren't you married?" I said, "Well, I am young, and I haven't found a man that I want to marry yet, or one that wants to marry me. Two people have to agree that they want to spend their lives together if they are going to get married." She said, "Oh, then how do you sleep?"

Now that really struck me. I was going to write on this blog today about how I kept overhearing conversations on campus today like, "OMYGOD, I've never been soooo drunk!!" or "I don't know what happened to my magic wand..." But anyway, this bedtime-tuck-in conversation seemed a lot more intriguing.

A lot of nights it's true that it is lonely, though I have gotten a little bit more used to it. After living with someone, I think you get used to having a body in bed with you...and even if you just have roommates, you at least have someone to go in and bother (LAUREN). But I guess the interesting thing about my little friend asking me these questions is that I wonder if it is a basic need for humans to want to sleep with someone else there. I try not to look at it through the attachment issues looking glass since I am all too familiar with it, but do we really crave that attachment? Do we want someone there? Personally, I like to have a warm body next to me, but just the right distance next to me while I'm sleeping.

But here's the THING...I'm not sure if it is a need per se...I think it just might be more fun. Having someone there to talk to, to play with, to do stuff with, to confide in...it just makes life more fun. So sometimes when I'm home at night and I feel lonely...I think it's also because I'm a little bit bored. I do plenty of other things that should ease this boredom...but ya know, maybe you just want someone to cuddle with or perhaps drink some beers with...or just talk to about your day?